Who’s joining me in dropping those muddy feelings around limitless financial success using our gifts?
Whilst doing my first row of the year and well first for a few months, I found myself thinking about all the things I would like to achieve, both for myself and my family. You see, I have this innate desire to live a truly abundant life where I can live in beautiful places, eat high quality food and generally live what I feel is a high vibration life. A life which makes me feel true alive and on fire. Yet when I truly begin to explore this for myself and how I'm going to continue achieving this in an authentic way, it's interesting what feelings come up for me and I'm certain I’m not alone with this. So this is what I think….
When I drop into the visual picture of how this looks it involves many things ranging from spending time in beautiful nature spaces to living in an elegant beautiful homes. I like giving my children a fully supported life were they get to learn who they are and become masters at the things they love from a young age.
I enjoy wearing lovely clothes which light me up and spend time in beautiful places with like minded soul seeking people. I want to be able to live a life which feels free and authentic to who I am and the things I truly value in the world. A life where simplicity is at the chore, a life free from complexity and confusion and emotional drama. A life where my gifts create my income flow and then support me to be myself, sounds good hey. So why is it no matter how far we are on that journey there is so much shame and muddy feelings that can feel like a huge mote disabling us from getting into our very own castles?
So those feelings? The ones that make us feel like our dreams are drowning like wellies stuck in the middle of a muddy mote and we just can't quite get to our castles. Why is that? It's like your doing your best to stay positive keep going and believe in the dream. To even have the audacity to say you can do it, a life true to who you are to make amazing money from your truth. Then come along those feelings where all you want to do is curl up and hide. All the helplessness the fear of failure of fucking up big time, the feelings that make you feel ashamed for dreaming big. Who the hell do you think you are? You can achieve that, you can't support yourself and everyone else at that level what are you thinking. The feelings that say what will people think of me, no one will understand me anymore I won't belong if i become that successful. And there you have it in one millisecond all those beautiful multicolored full spectrum visions and dreams you have for you life are popped and your brought back down left in a crumpled heap on the sofa simply not knowing where to begin and why you even felt them in the first place.
Ok let's get frank about this we live in a system where the reality is this money is the currency, I’m not saying it’s right or wrong it just is. If I want to live in my dream house then it's going to cost me some money. If i want to eat high quality food either i need to grow it which means i need to have time which means i need to be making money whilst im not working or I need to buy it. You see my motivations for living a life true to my souls gifts aren't really anything to do with money in fact you could easily say a part of me has no care for money. I mean this in the way I would struggle to do a job day in day out which completely kills my soul just for money. I believe many of us are the same and most certainly the millennial generation are. More and more people are questioning their reasons for working. I’m aware I need to be careful of sounding like a spoilt brat here because it’s not that I’ve worked cleaning jobs and waitress jobs to make money throughout my life. What Im talking about is the kind of job that literally takes up all your time your whole life just for the act of making money. You see for me those jobs are all part of the same trap and are intrinsically linked to the mucky muddy feeling which keep us from believing in the possibility of making money using our gifts so we can live our dream lives. Believe me now I’m 100% certain it's a con, we are conning ourselves by believing our feelings of shame and self abandonment over the beautiful sweet song which is our truths.
So why? why ? why? Why are we allowing ourselves to tripped up by these feelings, why is it the simple task of stomping through that muddy mote in our sparkly wellies blocking us from our dream lives. Why can it become so icky and horrible? Well you see I see it like this we are all made up of lots of different energies, light dark, sparkly and so on the energies are our stories which are made up from lots of things our past experiences, our families experiences our ancestral stories then we have our soul our truths... like everything in life they are a mixture of positive and negative.
We collect them inside ourselves like our own blueprint bible that we fully believe to be true because we saw it first hand our mother or grandmother told us so and then life happened and confirmed all this to be true. So here we are believing in our blueprint bible believing like good disciples, we managed to gather other people around us who have the same values the same beliefs and they became even more true for us. Ultimately we all share the same shame and fears of stepping up together.
So there you have it the big fat muddy mote surrounding your beautiful dream filled castle. So I'm going to say this, it's all an illusion the whole lot. It is possible to drop those feelings of shame and fear it just takes effort the effort is in the task of surrendering them, letting go of those feeling. Cry, sob, exercise, tap, jog,breath,pray, do anything you can to get them out and let them go. Don't expect it to happen over night it's a life times journey and it takes dedication. Focus on everything you LOVE, use your clothes to raise your vibration express yourself. Take A LOT of care of yourself, LOVE yourself, fat bum, warts and all because its vital we do this no matter how hard it feels and believe me I know. Make it your life's mission to get through the mud so that you may access your dreams don't give up, keep going, keep going…….keep going…..We've got this. You see there are so many amazing and wonderful and beautiful opportunities out there for us, there are endless stories of self made success people rising from all sorts of places at all sorts of ages. There is no limit to the possibility of a happy dream fulfilled life, the only limit is ourselves, so whos up for joining me on a mission for self fueled limitless possibility and let's create our own blue print bibles on our own terms?
Sending all my love