I’m blessed with the gift of a huge imagination and a belief in the seeming to be impossible. It’s a double edged sword as in my heart I believe in so much magic and a life of ease doing things I love working in a way I believe in yet it also makes it hard to do anything else. The truth is always calling me and whilst this is an exciting path, well it isn't always an easy one it can be hard to juggle with real life. So my thoughts this morning are how do we live our truths when our lives are telling us its just not possible.
Our lives aren’t always just set up and ready for us to indulge in creating our dream lives, expressing our true selves. More often than not we are all responsible for many things apart from ourselves. Keeping children fed happy and alive, running businesses, paying mortgages and managing our relationships to name but a few. There seems little time to spend on creating new path ways for our selves and our lifes visions which are stashed deep within our hearts.
A year and a half ago I was feeling really tired and pretty low, the stress of everything I had been carrying had caught up with me and it felt really sad. I was finding it hard to find my sparkle my magic which I knew I had. I was feeling like I wanted to be working, doing something which I truly believed in and loved. I knew if I was going to put my energy into something that this time it needed to be my full truth not just a part of it as I had already done in the past but my everything. It was time to amalgamate everything I believed in and find a way to start working all my gifts. The truth was though I was at the end of my everything. I hadn't lost my baby weight, I was exhaustedI literally couldn't think straight.
So what I did was I decided to give myself some time and work slowly starting with the things which felt the most important. I decided to trust and believe in myself and life. I decided to shift myself from the I want it now mentality to the I have the rest of my life ahead of me mentality and there is time and room for the expansion I need. I decided to use everything I had already done in my life that had worked before when it came to recovery and to focus on those things. I decided not to focus on the things which weren't working. I dug out my beautiful wooden rowing machine which was gathering dust and committed to doing just a little everyday even though little people would play on it. I quit eating the foods that didn't make me feel good. I changed all my supplements. I asked for help and I gave my self realistic goals. I wasn't in a rush I thought it would take me time to get back to feeling myself and I gave myself it despite the fact my life needed me to right there already happy, healthy, strong working doing it now.
Then something miraculous happened things started happening fast it was amazing, weight fell of me after years of trying. My energy raised really quickly, I started feeling better and better it was unexpected but such a relief. Once I’d raised my physical energy I decided to start planning my dream work. It needed to be everything I love, style beauty fashion, people emotions, spiritual connection. It needed to be exciting have lots of energy room for limitless possibility and inspiration and empowerment. It wasn't clear I didn't know how exactly I could do this but yet again I decided to take steps in the right direction I decided to give myself time for success I realised that I’d achieved so much in my last 20 years of working life that even if it took me the next 20 years to do the same then that would be amazing. I started taking small daily steps planning plotting, I hired the best mentor I knew of to help me stay true to my self.
Yet again something magic happened it all started to flow out of me quickly. My ideas formed into a realistic plan and structure and business and this is what has happened. Today my website is launched and the beginning of my new path has truly began. I’m still at the same point of the unknown however I know that if I trust and give myself time and space despite the fact my life is still crazy and full on around me. With 3 little ones to care for and responsibilities to keep up with. If I keep focused on the vision with space and belief in my heart everything will just fall into place ahead of me.
So my point is no matter what point we are at in our lives, wether we feel completely stuck at the absolute beginning of our paths towards our lives visions. Or if we have started and are already on our way, there is no end to achievement it’s the human way to strive for more. I believe that's ok its good, its what keeps us inspired and alive. Yet it’s the energy we chose to do it which makes a huge difference both to ourselves our wellbeing and how we achieve.
From analysing what works in my own life again and again. I would say this, hold your dream close to your heart, don't stop believing when you live your truth it has extra energy it comes with the magic of you and this creates the quickest results. Give yourself time don't beat yourself up for not already achieving it this only wastes time. Give yourself limitless time in your mind whilst commiting to taking daily action and realistic goals depending on your life. Focus on your vision NOT on your reality of your lives. Do something everyday to raise your energy higher, dress yourself in clothes you love take care of yourself this effects how you are able to believe and show up for your dreams. Relax and trust that by believing whole heartily whilst taking baby steps before you know it something big will just fall into place.
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